#104

I’ve Never Been So Wrong

 

Thought you’d make me whole

Thought you’d make me complete

Thought you’d always be there

Thought you’d be holding my hand

Thought you’d be looking into my eyes

Thought you’d never break my heart

Thought you’d never lie

Thought you’d always be with me

Thought you’d never make me cry

Thought you’d hold me all night long

Thought you’d never hurt me

Thought you’d always keep your word

Thought you’d love me

Thought you’d never leave me again

Thought you’d be here

Thought you’d find me before now

Thought you’d understand

Thought you’d call

Thought you’d get your life on track

 

4-21-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#101

Too Much

 

Can’t get you off my mind

And I know I’m not the kind

Too fast, no time to heal

I’m not sure my heart can deal

So hard to stay strong

When everything’s going so wrong

I just can’t cry anymore

I’m going to start crying my soul

Too much unneeded pain

And entirely too much strain

It’s all so hard, is it worth it?

I don’t know, come back in a little bit

 

3-17-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#99

I Can’t

 

My mind won’t let me forget

And it’s not like I regret

But I can’t unthink about you

You’re here in everything I do

I can’t unhear all the words you said

Your voice echoes inside my head

I can’t unremember everything we’ve been through

I just can’t unlove you

I can’t unfeel your hand

Nothing ever turns out like you plan

I just can’t unhurt the way I do

I’m trying, trust me, but I can’t unlove you

 

3-8-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#95

In Pain

 

I’m alone yet again

But it’s my fault in the end

I shouldn’t have said anything

Pain is all my words bring

Now I’m crying and thinking of you

I’m so stupid in all I do

Maybe I’m supposed to die alone and in pain

I’ll never fall in love again

My heart aches

And mine has had all it can take

 

1-25-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#91

Leaving

 

I wanna leave this place never to return

Never look back, just let it burn

Let it alone, let it be, try to forget

All the things we sad we’d never regret

Remember the faces, forget the times and the names

Forget the time we sat in the rain

Remember the pain, forget the rest

I dot want to, it was the best

But the pain and the agony, how can I forgive

But of course I’ll find some way to live

I must, that’s what I do

That’s what I learned to do after you

You didn’t end my world, although you tried

You made me wish I would die

Not from you leaving me

But from you hitting me

I thought it was my fault so I stayed

But it was my trust and feelings you betrayed

You said you cared

But would then leave me unable to be repaired

Well, guess what, f*** you and all you stand for

Since I left you, I’ve found so much better

Then I can’t help but think, did I ever need you anyway?

So then, why did I stay?

 

11-15-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#89

For The Best

 

If my heart could talk

It would explain why I need to walk

Walk away and say the end

Never look back again

But my heart can’t talk so I must

I don’t mean to betray what was us

But what I know and have heard hurts

That there’s another and you like to flirt

Well, it may seem sudden and unexpected

But don’t think you’re completely rejected

I still care for you and want you as a friend

But this will be better in the end

No fake love, only lust and desire

My heart will burn like wood set afire

A little pain now rather than a love and time lost further on

I just want you to know my feelings for you aren’t gone

 

10-26-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#88

Someday

 

I loved you and you loved me

It just didn’t seem meant to be

Called me up and said I can’t do this anymore

I’ll be there just before 4

You show up and I’m crying

I knew by the look on his face he wasn’t lying

But you said we could try again

That you didn’t want this to be the end

But it’s been 2 months since then

And I’m starting to wonder how you’ve been

Hope you’ve been doing fine

Wondering if I ever cross your mind

Do you ever wonder what could have been

Or maybe you’ve already said the end

Hope you’re happy doing whatever

Maybe you’ve found something better

But either way, I hope you’re doing ok

Maybe we’ll see each other some day

 

10-6-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#86

My Turn to Lose It All

 

Not gonna lost t all over you

But then, what do I do?

Wait for you to come back?

Wait till we get out lives on track?

I let you break my heart

I guess I’m really not that smart

But I do care for you a lot

And I’d like another shot

But I need to fix myself first

Of all my problems, that’s the worst

I never wanted you to go

There were so many things you should’ve known

I don’t know what I’m waiting for

But I can’t be so strong anymore

It’s my turn to break down and cry

My turn to want to just die

 

7-24-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#84

Mistakes

 

I can’t eat anymore

I can’t sleep and my life’s become even more of a bore

No one’s perfect all the time

And the words don’t always rhyme

You’ll never know why I didn’t walk away

You told the truth and that’s ok

Mistakes can be made and forgiven

It’s just, now, I hope you’re still living

I hope you’re ok, but we need to talk

Why didn’t you tell me you were gonna take this kind of a walk?

Was it sudden or planned?

Was the fire between you and your dad fanned?

Talk to me when you get the chance and can get through

Because I can’t really see me without you

 

7-16-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#82

Feelings

 

Love it so hard to forget

And sometimes full of regret

The feeling’s always on your mind

Wondering if you messed up this time

Your friendship is great, but you almost want more

But friends is good, let’s see what fate has in store

Feelings of want and jealously

The love is still there, you both see

If you love someone, set them free

And if they come back, then it’s meant to be

 

7-5-05

 

© Anzu Ski