#8

Make It End

 

As I lay here alone in my bed

I think of all the things you’ve said

The pills won’t work, I’ve tried

Sometimes I’ve just wished I’d die

I’ve cut until I won’t bleed anymore

I have this feeling in my core

You’re gonna leave me

I think you want to be free

There aren’t any guns that I could use

Nothing can cover up this bruise

They won’t go away, the voices in my head

They tell me that you wish I was dead

I want it all to end

But then I think of my friends

Would they miss me

Or would they be filled with glee?

Then I think about you

What would you do?

 

11-15-04

 

© Anzu Ski

#4

Nothing Left Now

 

I have to tell you thins thing that’s been on my mind

And I thought you weren’t that kind

But you did that thing and it hurt

All cuz of her mini skirt?

Why is it you won’t let yourself love me?

You know that we’re perfect for each other and that scares you

Down to every last kiss, you’re my baby

Tell me baby, why do you always leave without saying goodbye?

I haven’t heard an I love you in a while

Are you afraid to love me?

Why would you be afraid of something so obvious?

You see, I haven’t felt the way I do in quite a while

I love the feeling I get when we touch

Even the slightest little touch gives me chills

I like that feeling

It shows me that I really do love you

You might not get it yet, but I hope you will soon

You see, I would go insane if anything ever happened to you… to us

You’re part of me, my reason for living, my last handle hold on “life”

If you’re gone, what’s the point? I have nothing left to live for

So I won’t

That’s how I felt then

But not anymore

I do miss you and want you back

But you aren’t the only thing I think about…

Anymore

 

11-9-04

 

© Anzu Ski