#110

Is This Destiny?

 

Don’t worry about me

Everything will turn out like it’s supposed to be

The scars may fade

So could the love we made

Made in our hearts

Made from the start

So the blood drips

As my view of us slips

I don’t want this to end

And have you be only a friend

But that’s where this is going, right?

You don’t wanna be with me so there goes my light

You’re my world, my soul, my love

And we are so far above

But what about when we crash land

None of that’s ever planned

Will you end up as only a friend?

How will you not let our love end?

 

6-5-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#106

Not Again

 

I see you pull your hand back

I try to cover my face, prepare for impact

It doesn’t do much to stop the pain

The bruises still remain

I’ve come to expect it

I know I’m going to be hit

It’s not like I can stop you

What can I do?

I mean, afterwards, I can cry

But the tears, all too soon, dry

I need something more

Like walking out the door

You can’t keep me here

I won’t live in fear

So I’m leaving, no longer doing your bidding

But I can’t leave, who am I kidding

Nowhere to go but up to my room

I’ve sealed my fate, maybe my tomb

 

5-8-06

 

© Anzu Ski 

#98

It Takes Two

 

To begin to start

To fix these broken hearts

We’re torn

But we never gave up this easily before

Look at it with open eyes

Great things take at least two tries

Too good to throw away

Together we decide to stay

Never give in

All that’s important is within

Feelings tried and patients worn

All because of the promise I’d sworn

Blame age, friends, fate

Just don’t become filled with hate

Not for me

Don’t let that ever be

Keep me close in body and heart

Don’t let those seeds ever start

Lies, distrust, hate, jealously

We’re overcame that, you see

Cont start what you can’t finish

And never let our love diminish

Because it will take two

To see this thing through

 

2-1-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#91

Leaving

 

I wanna leave this place never to return

Never look back, just let it burn

Let it alone, let it be, try to forget

All the things we sad we’d never regret

Remember the faces, forget the times and the names

Forget the time we sat in the rain

Remember the pain, forget the rest

I dot want to, it was the best

But the pain and the agony, how can I forgive

But of course I’ll find some way to live

I must, that’s what I do

That’s what I learned to do after you

You didn’t end my world, although you tried

You made me wish I would die

Not from you leaving me

But from you hitting me

I thought it was my fault so I stayed

But it was my trust and feelings you betrayed

You said you cared

But would then leave me unable to be repaired

Well, guess what, f*** you and all you stand for

Since I left you, I’ve found so much better

Then I can’t help but think, did I ever need you anyway?

So then, why did I stay?

 

11-15-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#89

For The Best

 

If my heart could talk

It would explain why I need to walk

Walk away and say the end

Never look back again

But my heart can’t talk so I must

I don’t mean to betray what was us

But what I know and have heard hurts

That there’s another and you like to flirt

Well, it may seem sudden and unexpected

But don’t think you’re completely rejected

I still care for you and want you as a friend

But this will be better in the end

No fake love, only lust and desire

My heart will burn like wood set afire

A little pain now rather than a love and time lost further on

I just want you to know my feelings for you aren’t gone

 

10-26-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#88

Someday

 

I loved you and you loved me

It just didn’t seem meant to be

Called me up and said I can’t do this anymore

I’ll be there just before 4

You show up and I’m crying

I knew by the look on his face he wasn’t lying

But you said we could try again

That you didn’t want this to be the end

But it’s been 2 months since then

And I’m starting to wonder how you’ve been

Hope you’ve been doing fine

Wondering if I ever cross your mind

Do you ever wonder what could have been

Or maybe you’ve already said the end

Hope you’re happy doing whatever

Maybe you’ve found something better

But either way, I hope you’re doing ok

Maybe we’ll see each other some day

 

10-6-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#87

Questions

 

Feelings wasted

And so many tears tasted

Giving so much and getting nothing back

No one’s cutting any slack

Why is it always me

Waiting to be free

How can you sleep at night

Knowing all we do is fight

How can you live without dreams

How can you expect me to believe

Struggle and strife

We’re always fighting for life

Can you promise me no pain?

And come dancing in the rain?

Can you promise me unwavering love?

 

10-2-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#84

Mistakes

 

I can’t eat anymore

I can’t sleep and my life’s become even more of a bore

No one’s perfect all the time

And the words don’t always rhyme

You’ll never know why I didn’t walk away

You told the truth and that’s ok

Mistakes can be made and forgiven

It’s just, now, I hope you’re still living

I hope you’re ok, but we need to talk

Why didn’t you tell me you were gonna take this kind of a walk?

Was it sudden or planned?

Was the fire between you and your dad fanned?

Talk to me when you get the chance and can get through

Because I can’t really see me without you

 

7-16-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#81

Gets Harder Every Time I Call You

 

The love is there

We both know it and willingly show it

Holding hands and flirting

But I can’t help but wonder if there’s another

Someone you go to other than me

You say you’d never do that s***

The you’ve been lately, I’m not sure

Distant and unpredictable

I hope you love me like you say you do

I’m not sure what I’d do if you didn’t

I’m not breaking down this time

Not gonna cry on his shoulder again

It’s not fair for me to do that s*** to him

I love you and want you around

So get your happy ass over to my side of town

 

7-4-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#79

We’re Still Us

 

I finally realize that what we had was great

But we’re great friends by fate

We’re together and always will be

I’m always gonna be here for you just like I know you will be for me

I’ve got your back and you’ve got mine

Knowing this I can start to unwind

We still joke and talk about what we were

But in the big picture, that’s just a tiny blur

Cuz were so much more than that now that we’ve re-found each other

I love you and turn to you when there is no other

We’re still us, and we always will be

I still love you, and I’m sure you still care about me

 

6-22-05

 

© Anzu Ski