#101

Too Much

 

Can’t get you off my mind

And I know I’m not the kind

Too fast, no time to heal

I’m not sure my heart can deal

So hard to stay strong

When everything’s going so wrong

I just can’t cry anymore

I’m going to start crying my soul

Too much unneeded pain

And entirely too much strain

It’s all so hard, is it worth it?

I don’t know, come back in a little bit

 

3-17-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#99

I Can’t

 

My mind won’t let me forget

And it’s not like I regret

But I can’t unthink about you

You’re here in everything I do

I can’t unhear all the words you said

Your voice echoes inside my head

I can’t unremember everything we’ve been through

I just can’t unlove you

I can’t unfeel your hand

Nothing ever turns out like you plan

I just can’t unhurt the way I do

I’m trying, trust me, but I can’t unlove you

 

3-8-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#95

In Pain

 

I’m alone yet again

But it’s my fault in the end

I shouldn’t have said anything

Pain is all my words bring

Now I’m crying and thinking of you

I’m so stupid in all I do

Maybe I’m supposed to die alone and in pain

I’ll never fall in love again

My heart aches

And mine has had all it can take

 

1-25-06

 

© Anzu Ski

#93

My Friend

 

They say time changes a person

And more times than not, they worsen

But time has made you only more understanding

And, to a point, even more demanding

You know what you want and how to obtain

But old friendships still remain

I still see you the same way as when we first met

And it will stay that way I bet

My best friend who hates saying goodbye

Not to mention that’s you’re a great guy

So many good times

And a few bad left behind

But, to be honest, I miss you like crazy

And lately my life’s been going insanely

I’ve been thinking a lot about the past

And how my feelings weren’t quite grasped

I loved you then and to a point, I still do

I still would lay down my life for you

But the point isn’t my feelings

It’s all the things that you’re stealing

My memories, my friends, my heart

With you, my friend, I wish to never part

A friend or more in your eyes?

Let’s not hide behind any lies

I miss you being by my side

And my feelings haven’t completely died

But life will go on, maybe

Without you in it at least as a friend, life’s ended for me

 

12-11-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#89

For The Best

 

If my heart could talk

It would explain why I need to walk

Walk away and say the end

Never look back again

But my heart can’t talk so I must

I don’t mean to betray what was us

But what I know and have heard hurts

That there’s another and you like to flirt

Well, it may seem sudden and unexpected

But don’t think you’re completely rejected

I still care for you and want you as a friend

But this will be better in the end

No fake love, only lust and desire

My heart will burn like wood set afire

A little pain now rather than a love and time lost further on

I just want you to know my feelings for you aren’t gone

 

10-26-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#88

Someday

 

I loved you and you loved me

It just didn’t seem meant to be

Called me up and said I can’t do this anymore

I’ll be there just before 4

You show up and I’m crying

I knew by the look on his face he wasn’t lying

But you said we could try again

That you didn’t want this to be the end

But it’s been 2 months since then

And I’m starting to wonder how you’ve been

Hope you’ve been doing fine

Wondering if I ever cross your mind

Do you ever wonder what could have been

Or maybe you’ve already said the end

Hope you’re happy doing whatever

Maybe you’ve found something better

But either way, I hope you’re doing ok

Maybe we’ll see each other some day

 

10-6-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#86

My Turn to Lose It All

 

Not gonna lost t all over you

But then, what do I do?

Wait for you to come back?

Wait till we get out lives on track?

I let you break my heart

I guess I’m really not that smart

But I do care for you a lot

And I’d like another shot

But I need to fix myself first

Of all my problems, that’s the worst

I never wanted you to go

There were so many things you should’ve known

I don’t know what I’m waiting for

But I can’t be so strong anymore

It’s my turn to break down and cry

My turn to want to just die

 

7-24-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#85

I Never Meant To

 

I never meant to be so distant and hard

For this kind of thing there’s no Hallmark card

Never meant to hurt you like this

Never wanted to see you this pissed

Sorry for all the pain

Look outside, it’s starting to rain

The rain falls like the tears on my face

My heart once again begins to race

This is hurting me as much as you

For this, I don’t know what to do

But I never meant to be so cold or so uncaring

So, how are you faring?

 

7-17-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#84

Mistakes

 

I can’t eat anymore

I can’t sleep and my life’s become even more of a bore

No one’s perfect all the time

And the words don’t always rhyme

You’ll never know why I didn’t walk away

You told the truth and that’s ok

Mistakes can be made and forgiven

It’s just, now, I hope you’re still living

I hope you’re ok, but we need to talk

Why didn’t you tell me you were gonna take this kind of a walk?

Was it sudden or planned?

Was the fire between you and your dad fanned?

Talk to me when you get the chance and can get through

Because I can’t really see me without you

 

7-16-05

 

© Anzu Ski

#83

Great Times Gone and More to Come

Close enough to touch

And I care about you so much

Great times together

Whether as a couple, separate or whatever

We’ve always had so much fun

Even after all was said and done

All the hugs and dances

I guess we used all our chances

Great friends till the end

For you, backwards I would bend

My friend, ex- lover and shoulder to cry on

I’m not sure what I’m gonna do if you’re ever completely gone

 

7-16-05

 

© Anzu Ski