#10

I Need to Stop

 

If I don’t kill myself for this

It’s because of you

The radio is blaring

And I can’t hear myself screaming

Your ring is still on my hand

And it will stay there

You’re still on my mind

And you always will be

No matter what happens

But I fucked up this time

It’s my fault

It always is

Every time I’m happy, I fuck it up

I’ve stopped… for now

For you

You don’t have to tell me how sad it made you

I could see it in the way you looked at me

It was an empty, emotionless look

I want to be able to stop, but I need your help

Can you help me?

You’re the only one who can make me stop

I haven’t asked you for much

This is one thing I want, no need, you to do

I just want to get rid of all my pain

Throw it all away forever

Baby, can you help me?

 

11-29-04

 

© Anzu Ski

#4

Nothing Left Now

 

I have to tell you thins thing that’s been on my mind

And I thought you weren’t that kind

But you did that thing and it hurt

All cuz of her mini skirt?

Why is it you won’t let yourself love me?

You know that we’re perfect for each other and that scares you

Down to every last kiss, you’re my baby

Tell me baby, why do you always leave without saying goodbye?

I haven’t heard an I love you in a while

Are you afraid to love me?

Why would you be afraid of something so obvious?

You see, I haven’t felt the way I do in quite a while

I love the feeling I get when we touch

Even the slightest little touch gives me chills

I like that feeling

It shows me that I really do love you

You might not get it yet, but I hope you will soon

You see, I would go insane if anything ever happened to you… to us

You’re part of me, my reason for living, my last handle hold on “life”

If you’re gone, what’s the point? I have nothing left to live for

So I won’t

That’s how I felt then

But not anymore

I do miss you and want you back

But you aren’t the only thing I think about…

Anymore

 

11-9-04

 

© Anzu Ski

#3

What I Want

 

If you could do it all over again

Would you?

I know I would

Not a second would have to go by before I knew that

I liked how we were

How could we find what we had in other people?

We couldn’t

I want you back

You want me back… I think

We need each other

For now

Forever

 

6-24-04

 

© Anzu Ski